Wanderlust into Spinning/Spilling
These are two songs that flow into each other. When this song is out, this will be 2 separate pages. For now, all lyrics into one!
Wanderlust
if i had my say i would think all my thoughts away
own all my emotions with facts and logic
but every day when i slip into this mental state
i don't know where i should be but it's not this
my mind is lost on pondering these miniscule concerns
and marching straight passed lessons that i guess i'll never learn
it's kicking up the dust on every memory it can stir
and i'm just staring at my shoes and wishing they would turn
maybe i'll move to the city, dive into the culture
just to get real mad about some frivolous shit
or i'll live in my prius, scavenge like a vulture
anything it takes to let me let go of this
i just want to control the way i feel and how i come across
maybe i'm just wanting it too much
so could that be what's keeping me from pushing passed the sticky stuff
am i stomping my desires into dust?
i swear i'm filled up to the brim with wanderlust
oh i wonder why i'm so stuck
Spinning/Spilling
nothing wakes me up anymore
and nothing puts me down anymore
so now i'm living like a zombie or some more creative word
nothing gets my eye anymore
get's my stare up off the ground anymore
and i don't even react when something heavy hits the floor
so this is who i am now
an inaccessible boy
who's too caught up in fantasy to live
so don't try to ask what i'm up to
just don't try to make some sense of the things i do
because if i knew i would change it
i promise i'd do things right
but i'm spinning and it's spilling into my life
i don't get much rest these days
so i don't feel my best these days
and if i feel it for a minute in the next one all has changed
i'm just feeling weak these days
feel i've already peaked these days
and last week something clicked but in a bad way
it's all piling and piling and piling and piling up
it's all piling and piling and piling and piling up
(this is who i am now)
it's all piling and piling and piling and piling
(this is who i am now)
piling and piling and piling and piling
(this is who i am now)
piling and piling and piling and piling up
so don't try to ask what i'm up to
just don't try to make some sense of the things i do
because if i knew i would change it
i promise i'd do things right
but i'm spinning and it's spilling into my life