Nervous Habit
eviscerating my fingernails
chewing them down to the bone
expose the soft bits to open air
feel the sting come along
my index fingers look stubby
the tips expanding each day
is it still a nervous habit if it never goes away?
i guess i'm always nervous about something
i'm just never certain what that something is
hope that no one sees it in my face but it's freezing me in place
hoping that it's time to get over it
making fidgety motions
compulsively move my hands
tap the walls while i'm walking
sticking to paranoid plans
hoping no on will notice
no words behind my back
is this all a nervous habit cuz it feels way more than that
i guess i'm always nervous about something
i'm just never certain what that something is
hope that no one sees it in my face but it's freezing me in place
hoping that it's time to get over it
i'm not sure ever
i'm just not sure
i'm not sure ever
i'm just not sure
the most certain i can be
is 85%
so there's difficulties
with confidence
the most certain i can be
is 85%
so there's difficulties
i guess i'm always nervous about something
i'm just never certain what that something is
hope that no one sees it in my face but it's freezing me in place
hoping that it's time to get over it