The Internet Is Cool

March 18th 2026

Alright. Hey. What's up? Thanks for being here. I wanna ramble. Don't fully know what about yet, but I'll figure it out as I go. Maybe I'm just putting off going out because I still don't know if I want to or not. If I don't go out and any of my friends are reading this, sorry about that! But I think I wanna talk about the internet.

So I've been disillusioned by Instant Graham, as many have. Since I make music in a public sense, it is kinda required to have it in order to get people to listen to the music I make. Also my friends are on there and they share reels or posts with me, and when I'm using it I watch them and feel somewhere on the spectrum of entertained to confused, or sometimes nothing at all. But then I give it a reaction to acknowledge that it has been seen and I move on. Sometimes it'll stick with me, but off the top of my head the only ones I can think of are Malcolm in the Middle bits or Wii Shop Wednesday. So while I love my friends, it isn't doing a whole lot for me.

Last week, I got my second lowest average screen time per day on my phone ever at 54 minutes per day. I did this by basically ignoring Instant Graham all week. I still used my laptop so I kinda cheated, but at least I spend a good amount of time on my laptop working on making games or designing this website. Lots of distractions too, but at least SOME of it is productive. The extent of the productive use of my phone is texting or calling or logging onto my work computer with two-factor authentication. (sidenote: idk why I still am using my iphone. this is making me rethink the justification of my use of the iphone.) But on Sunday I just caught up on the IG messages I missed and everything was fine and dandy. So what am I doing?

Oh yeah, uhhhhhh music. I've kinda lost my drive to post even though I haven't lost my drive to create. I just don't know how to make Content in the way that increases the amount of people that listen to the stuff I make. Maybe I just don't try hard enough though. It's just draining to me. And what's funny about that is making this website and writing up a blog ISN'T draining to me. At least not yet. I know I'm early in my voyage, but it feels good to spend my time typing up this nonsense. I think it just adds open-ended element to it. I don't need to do what will get me likes, I just need to do whatever I want to do. There's probably some "this is cooler than social media B^)" aspect to it too. Also, just knowing the internet isn't truly dead is absolutely delightful to me.

I found the website Ribbit today through the blog of someone I found in a webring. It's just a social media platform, but like... small. And it feels purer somehow too. But I posted on there about how cool the indie web is, and I mentioned the "Golden Age of the Internet" which I've talked to friends about before. Learning about the indie web is magical to me because it's like this Golden Age never truly ended. I just lost track of it because stuff like Youtube and IG feed me all sorts of stuff without me needing to search it out. But during the internet times before these huge websites took over, part of the fun was the search. I just have forgotten about it because I was given the opportunity for convenience and instant gratification.

What's funny about my early experience with Ribbit is I don't feel drained posting on there. It's all strangers and there is no expectation for me to be anything. Hey, maybe there isn't an expectation for me to be something on IG, but hoo boy does it feel like there is. It feels like there is a goal that I am working on and failing to accomplish when I'm on there. While building a musical following would be a dream, nearly everything that I have to do to get there in 2026 feels bad to do. Like I don't think anyone truly understands The Algorithm, but I have heard that an aspect of it is watching and engaging with other people's content to get your content boosted. But I don't wanna do that. It overstimulates my brain and ruins my day. If I do it at night, it ruins my sleep. Maybe I'm overreacting, or maybe I'm just overly sensitive. But either way, not a fan.

So maybe nothing will come of my musical endevours. Or maybe when I finish the music I'm currently working on, I'll get the posting part down. Maybe I just need to make a post when I do my weekly recap of what people sent me. Probably that actually. That last one sounds good. I have stuff I can post, I just don't like opening IG. But honestly, from writing this, I think it's just a mental block I gotta get past. And I want to be able to think my way out of whatever jam gets in my way. So this is just an opportunity to do that.

Okay I can do it. I'll do it. I'll post on bad internet sometimes and just cancel it out by posting on good internet.

This is a doozy. I don't even know what I wrote, but I got somewhere. If you've somehow made it this far, I have no idea how you did it, but I appreciate it.

Alright. Thanks for being here. Talk to you later.