Here We Go

March 16th, 2026

Alright I'm getting stuff up n running for this. I got a lot of ideas for stuff, but not a ton of execution. Ideas in that I want to do stuff, but lack of execution in that I don't know exactly what.

I've been trying to get my creative routine in check. There are other routines that help me that have fallen off, but I'm taking it one at a time, at least I'm putting that here so I feel better about not doing the other stuff. But my creative routine centers around 3 main activities: music, game design, and website (this!). All of which, as of now, I feel sort of stagnant in. This I've hit a wave of enthusiam because of figuring out how to get a blog going, but also I don't even really know what to post to this blog. I do have a fairly distinct advantage in that I don't think anyone will read this, so I can really post anything I want for whatever reason I want. What I want to post about are the musical ideas, like great choruses, or songs or albums I've been interested in. I just can't think of how to word it. I like to think I'm articulate, but when it comes to writing an essay essentially, I feel stumped.

Great choruses are a good example of this. I talk all the time about what makes a chorus great, but when it comes to placing words down on a screen about it, I don't know what to say. I don't really have much music theory knowledge. I have some, but it's one of the many things where I have baseline knowledge, but nothing deeper. The ye olde Master of None situation. I do think I am a good songwriter, but when it comes to explaining in general why a song is good, I guess I have some sort of imposter syndrome because of my lack of music theory knowledge. I feel like I can't just say "it cool how melody go down" or something, because I can't be like "note went down minor third" or something. Honestly, maybe that would make a music review more accessible if I said things simpler.

There's probably a lesson here. I am thinking my way out of talking about something I like because I have assigned the meaning that I don't talk about it good enough. Writing this out, I realize it doesn't matter, and might actually be better, as previously stated. There are definitely other places in life this is probably true too. In therapy, I'm working on what is essentially building my everyday confidence in myself. I am confident enough that if someone said "I don't like your music" I can just be like "totally cool everyone has their own taste and I like it so that's what counts." The current task is to translate that confidence into me as a person. If someone doesn't like me, it's whatever I like me. So I really just gotta apply that here. If someone doesn't like my blog post, it's whatever I had fun doing it. This whole thing is just about me tossing whatever I want into the void of the internet. This whole thing is simply expanding on my creativity in new ways. Website is a new adventure, and I like the ethos behind it, and I wanna be involved. So that's exactly what I'm doing.

Great part about this is I am a rambler, and this is a perfect place to ramble with no guilt. "But Johm what about the confidence in yourself?" I hear you yelling at your screen. That's a work in progress. I'm working on it. And it's in progress. But I get to do it here. I am giving myself the ideal spot to ramble endlessly. I started this about not being sure to write and ended up here. Pretty slick if you ask me.

So here it is. Here I am. Here I dos it. One of these posts coming up is gonna be about how good of a song "She Doesn't Get It" by The Format is. One of thems is gonna be about my approach to writing "Coin Flip," a Froggy Nights EP that isn't even done yet. One of them will be about being stumped with game design and that'll cure my stumpedness. I love creating. This is fun.

Thanks for being here. Thanks for reading, if you got this far. I'll talk to you soon.